I was just your average teenager. Then I got pregnant.
On the other hand, adoption would allow her to live a wonderful life with parents who are in a steadier place than I am right now. I know they'd love her unconditionally and they'd provide her with a wonderful life. But the thought of having to let her go is absolutely devastating. Adoption is a wonderful thing; I'm just trying to figure out if it's right for me and my baby. There's so much out there written about adoption from the adoptive parents' perspective, but what about those on the other side of the equation? Just because it's unplanned doesn't mean it's easy.
I feel determined to reach my goals, and I believe it's possible either way. I don't want to be alone in Philadelphia when I go into labor, so I've left Temple and am currently at home taking online classes through the Harrisburg Area Community College to maintain my full-time student status. I want to finish school, make a career in journalism and lead a successful life. I understand this will be difficult if I have a child, but that doesn't mean it can't happen. My life isn't over. It's simply the beginning of another chapter.
Regardless of what I choose, I know I'm making the decision out of love. I feel confident in saying that no matter which option I go with, the baby will have a good life. She will be given opportunities. She will have parents she can look up to. Most important, she will be loved. This is the hardest decision I've ever had to make, and I can only hope that one day she will understand.
Being Black: It's not the skin color